|A Personal Diary Entry - Do You Ever Feel Indifferent?|
How do you handle the feeling of indifference?
I'm even reluctant to write about this mood!
Why am I reluctant to write about it? Apparently, I've heard and read that indifference is one of the least attractive and least productive emotions.
The Dictionary Definition of Indifference: "Lack of interest, concern, or sympathy"
In no-way do I feel a lack of sympathy for others when I'm feeling indifferent! (just wanted to put that out there)
Indifference About A Day, A Direction, Feeling a Lack of Control - That's The Indifference I'm Speaking About
Some days, not often, but a little more often lately, I feel a complete lack of control.
I know, I know, I know .... you're about to tell me that's a good thing.
Well, I agree; at times, that can undoubtedly be a good thing.
However, this lack of control brings out that dreaded word and feeling, "whatever."
The Not-Knowing is Suppose to Be a Good Thing, Right?
Do you think, lack of control and not knowing what's ahead is a good thing? Do you accept those moments in your life for what they are ... hopefully a temporary blip?
For me, it seems when things are somewhat overwhelming and a bit out of control, I get a little bit "indifferent." I get a sort of "so what" "whatever" feeling. I honestly despise that feeling. In my opinion, a lack of concern about a situation is unproductive.
Could it be a survival mechanism? Nah, I just think it's a newer feeling for me, and I have to learn to process it because I've rarely felt this way about life.
Since I'm solution-oriented, feeling "blah-what-ever" about a life issue annoys me further! I prefer to move forward and resolve matters ... not wallow in "whatevers."
The good thing about not knowing the answers and the resulting indifference is being forced to practice patience and accept that I can't control everything. Things have to resolve themselves in their own good time.
Two Things We Cannot Change: Natural Law and Other People
Most of us who have lived long enough already know and understand that we cannot change others. Goodness knows it took me into my thirties (a long time ago) to figure that one out.
However, I must ensure I don't get too indifferent about situations I cannot change or control lately. I'm not a heartless person and never want that unkind trait to infect my persona. It won't, but holy-hannah feeling indifferent really does suck!
What Do You Do to Cope With and Manage Your Feelings?
My entire life, I've written poetry. I recently published 50 years of poems on Amazon. I've been writing poems since I was 8 years old and decided it was time to assemble a book.
To cope, do you write? Read? Exercise? Sleep? Sing? Dance? Travel?
So today, I'm feeling indifferent (blah); this too shall pass.
Oh, by the way, what I've been doing to combat this unproductive feeling? Binge-watching Prime and Netflix series. Yah, I know, everything in moderation :)
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